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One of the "substitute people"
Can I substitute for Kirsten?
araestel
araestel
For those of you who wondered
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From: shegollum Date: July 7th, 2007 12:00 am (UTC) (Link)
You are such a dear and I am so sorry for what you've gone through and also how you've had to go through it. I understand accomodating your father's wishes and respect so much that you did that - gave him that gift - but I hope now you can find your own peace.

You gave your mother a beautiful gift in that poem. It's perfect and gentle and so loving. That is how I have always seen and felt you as well.

*tight hugs* Come back when you can but don't feel rushed. Do what you want when you want. We want to know you're caring for yourself.
araestel From: araestel Date: July 8th, 2007 03:55 am (UTC) (Link)
*hugs* You're very sweet. I was lucky in that I got to say goodbye to her and spend her last moments together. I just resent that preacher so much for butting in. But yes, I kept my feelings to myself for my dad. I thought his feelings should come first. But it's left me drifting and wondering how to make it through the night or next day. I'm tired of fighting and tired of just trying to survive. Financially, I'm in the toilet and this has only made everything worse. I can't support myself or my dad and now he'll have to move. I'm not mentally or physically up for it so the whole mess jsut makes me sick thinking about it.

Mom was the one person I could always talk to about anything--good or bad. She was *always* there for me and now that's gone. It's left me feeling drained but unable to sleep and my appetite is for shit. Which I guess is good because I can't afford anything anyway. I'm just tired of the struggle.
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