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Can I substitute for Kirsten?
araestel
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This and that
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araestel From: araestel Date: January 13th, 2006 01:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
*sniff* You're too sweet. *hugs*

Orlando is truly a rare jewel. He was wonderful and never even flickered at my appearance. I know he was "working" but he was genuine and took special time to speak with me.

I've been to a neurologist twice now and it seems what I'm left with is it. So I don't think there will ever be a real smile again for me.

I just hate looking at myself now. For weeks after it first happened, I didn't even look in the mirror and didn't leave the house. I had to re-learn how to speak so that I could be understood and even then, I had some real problems. Even eating a sandwich was hard-0my mouth won't open correctly. Pizza is hard too because it burns me because I can't move my lips to avoid the burn. Even brushing my teeth is hard. I was already depressed and this just made it worse. And on top of this, two times a year the damaged nerve feels intense pain like an ice pick imbeded in my face. I live with pain 24/7 now because of the damage but when my sinuses flair up, the pain is nearly unbearable. Doesn't helpt that I don't have insurance and no income, so there are a lot of things out of reach for me. Heck--I wouldn't even be on-line if not for my roommate giving me a pc and paying for the service. I feel like a burden and a waste.

Sorry for the rant. Today is a bad day and I just received more bad medical news.

But thank you so much for your sweet words. *hugs*
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